crying...

i tired of always smiling...
tired of always having to put on a strong face
tired of always have to think of others before myself

i just want to be like a freaking childish 23 yrs old...
asking for people to give in to me
asking for people to help me cox i freaking walk with a limp
just staying at home rotting instead of working

people always see be as being a strong ger...
in fact i am not that strong
all the burden i am carrying is making me breathless
burden of doing well in school
burden of doing well in work
burden to be able to make everyone happy

actually i feel very imperfect...
walking with a limp
being different from others
i hate when i see people staring at the way i walk
i have to work double hard to make ppl recognize me
people look down at me because of this
i hate when i cant wear heels bcox of this
i hate when i cant swim bcox of thim
i hate when i cant run bcox of this
i hate when i cant cycle bcox of this
i hate my life bcox i cant do everything people can...

i know i have alot people that truely cares about me
that do not even care that i am imperfect
that actually take care of me and love me
i know it and i appreciate it
thanks alots... LUV

but being different
is just so tiring at times
when the burden start to fall
and make me breathless
is times where i feel that i should not even be born
where i will think that the world be better without me
my parents will be more relax with this burden
my friends will feel less relax as do not have to worry for me

everytime when the burden fall
i will always after a while be able to push it back
and carry it for quite awhile more
so lets hope after a good sleep
i will become the strong and cheerful florence again...

piss off...

i hate it when i make mistake in work or whatever thing i suppose to do
duno whether is my good point or bad point...
i will want things that i do to be perfect
i know is quite impossible but i hope to be as perfect as possible
maybe it was bcox i was born imperfect
that why i want to change fate and be able to produce perfect things
when things turn out imperfect
it just sort of remind me how imperfect i am

it gets really tiring trying to make things perfect...
i think is time i try to change this habit
things will never be perfect
so like i never will

P.s: i should also change the habit of trusting ppl too much
should trust no one but myself...

luv

i miss falling in love...
drowned in sweetness...
when will i feel love again??

Short note: happy!! everything settle =) money does drop from the sky =P

tired

is hard to work with you at times
i have to be extra careful ard u
it make me really tired at times...
it maybe me being extra harsh on u or watever
i will try to change...
i hope you do so
if not it will go no where...

hurts...

it hurts when i see my love one hurting
yet
i cant seem to help...

my happiness always come from my love one
so i want all of you all to be happy!!

3 combo attack today
had tackle me down...
you all confine in me in your little secret
i am happy that you all did it
i am willing to help carry any burden for you guys
but
when the only thing i could do is to listen
i feel useless at times...

"i want to be able to hold on to your hand
and lead you away from the darkness and into the light
but i cant seem to find your hand in the dark
all i could do is hug on to you
protecting you from whatever is in the dark
while you find the way to walk into the light"

so lets solve the problem together
and not alone...
i will always be there for you
although i cant do much too

P.s: Gerri i love you... whatever decision you made, i be beside you... watever worries you have i will always be just a phone call away... stay strong... LUV

You know who... please do not made me worry... we will figure a way out... you lead me to the light lots of times and now is my turn to acompany you in the darkness to wait for the light =)

Ming... praying nothing serious will happen...

Let the suay Nov pass by fast...
when dec come let my love ones be happier

lazy mood

is been awhile since i blog...
lots of things to blog
chalet with the crazy ppl
meet up with poly cliques after their exam
usual meet up with my LUV...
but i just feel so lazy =P

life have been good
i am happy as how it is going
but it tend to become kinda of boring...

this is human isnt it??
never contented with life
i wanna be but i just feel something missing
what is it???

suay day

what a suay day at work yesterday was
delivery slam
(honestly think was becox of the haze, cox everyone else delivery very busy too)
2 new rider can freaking lose their way
stupid phone ringing non stop!
have to keep apologizing to customer
*pray pray no delivery complain*
*pretty please*
lucky there is good customer that made my day too

while all this is happening
edward came audit =(
i instantly feel like killing myself
delivery non stop from 10am
he still fail my audit
still kana say by boss...
lucky edward seem like a nice guy
help me push up my result
if not will be a 60%
*really can die instantly*

after all this thought that the end
realise ordering never do
have to go borrow things
hope the things we borrow will last

P.s: I have only 2 hands 1 head
if you trust me, know me well enough
you will have to know i did my best le
*blame me for the outside food and nametab, is my fault*
haix...
appreciate the apologize...
at least made me feel slightly appreciated

poly cliques

Had fun with them...
too bad weekiat was not ard
is been long everyone hang out together already
as the rest had started studying
while working full time...

lets hang out more often ppl!!!
love you all so much

jobless....

hahahha...
i am currently one job now
finally start to get use to the work environment
start to have fun working there
but all the office conflict make it gone

BUT
it might not be a bad thing
since i was really abit over worked
now i have more time to study
is my last year already
i wan to try to get my 2nd Upper
at least this way i wun regret =)

now i also have more time to accompany my parents
and to exercise to lose weight!!
FIGHTING

just like a spring

I am like a spring... Will always spring back no matter what happen... But even spring will spoil after long usage, so will it ever be my turn??

back to heaven

when we leave
do we want to leave back tears?
or leave back laughter?

i do not agree with u leaving so sudden just like that
as u may get the release u need
but
actually in fact u pass it forward to ur love ones

i actually do understand why u will lead to this stage
i used to think of leaving this world
but thanks to my happy character
it hold me back

i just hope now you be able to give strength
to ur families and love ones
bring them go thru this horrible time

P.s: from all this
we learn that our love ones are the most impt
in our life...
but will we remember this lesson we had forever?

i am poor...

offically declare myself broke...
hahahhaha
time to start saving again
savings depleting like water

Have to STOP!!
work and save up again...
i cant bear to see my account with so little money
no more shopping expensive things...

JIA YOU!!
at least this month $$ was well spend
as long as you all are happy
it make me happy =)

best mummy!!!

I have the best mummy in the world...
knowing that i am at home for dinner
she cook Ba Ku Teh!!
wooo... yummy!!

Scare that there is not enough food
she went out to buy KFC back for us
how great can she be??
Love her so much...

Was suppose to be on diet
think my short play on Wii would not help much =(
tml morning have to go run!!

P.s: Pic abit ugly ah... was too eager to eat the food =)


Mummy make my day perfect
make studying the stupid FR easier
i manage to understand and complete some qn
SO HAPPY!!!
life is great!!

you'll never walk alone

so emo...
hopes were high on the last 20 min
thought history will repeat itself
and kick start our season today at old trafford!

we still lost
but at least i see some form in liverpool today
lets hope it will go on!!
GOGO!!!

P.s: Jacky, hate u, hate Man U =P

to sleep

Picture always speak louder than words...
nice pic... lousy feeling...
let me just sleep it away...
night night world

happy enough

HAPPY!!!
all that i feel right now...
recover from my sickness
leading a more relaxing life
with more time for me to rest
life seem so perfect for now =)

went on my shopping spree yesterday
brought a skirt like finally
and lots of nice cheap girly clothes

BUT
haven found dear daddy present
it is just so difficult to find the perfect one
i just want to get him the perfect present
like what he got for mine
best wish
is still for you n mummy to be always happy
no argument
* wish wish wish =P *

Friday once again...
the day i get to see my girls...
LUV

its official

officially he going to be a air steward
congratulations!!
have fun in what you do
rem to buy me lots of presents when you fly =P

really sick...

so glad to be home on my lovely bed
spend 3 days in hospital
2 horrible nights...
with fever close to 40 degree
vomit like a fountain
on drip
everything was just so horrible

at least all is fine now =)
thanks gavin for visiting
my si gi na for coming to entertain me
with prezzie somemore
wanted to keep it really a secret so that ppl wun worry
but guess is hard...

so sorry for making you all worry bout me
i will take care of myself better
will work less and rest more

SORRY =(
esp. my parents, jacky, pastamania ppl for covering me

i tried...

i tried...
really did and guess i failed...
tried to understand how you feel
tried to be nice to you
tried to not scream at you when you do thing w/o thinking

what did i get back in return??
nothing... a black face thats all...
people might still be able to be nice to u
but i did this for duno how long already
talk to you
teach you
yet you never really listen and learn

you always still do things your way
and now even worst...
talk back and ignore...

is not i dun care
but i am really that busy
busy that i do not even have time for myself
i cannot afford to have the time like last time

Do you even understand about my situation??
i have already did my best
and that it...

yeobo =)

YEOBO!!!
my darlings...
i so glad to know you girls in my uni life
initially i still thought we will start to lose contact after we grad
esp after boon transfer to SIM

BUT
who knows...
till now our friendship are still as strong as ever
we make an effort to try to make up every friday
you girls just make my life so happy
thanks for showing up in my life =)

You girls must be strong
zee, boon: must get use to working life and find a good job
kales: find a good pt job and do well for school
jq, shi xian: study hard!! you girls can do well this year de!!