raining...

Skip school today although i woke up early... Was freaking emotional and physical tired yesterday, i am tired of working and tired of loving, i need a break, a break from everything in this world. AAAHHHH!!! I am piss!! piss off with myself...

At least i finally got the wish of drinking!! Ziya bdae!!! Had a really great day that night and after the drink, it make me wake up and stop doing all the stupid things. I am so looking forward to the next drinking session during month end!! Luv u guys and gers!! Is because of you all, my life at work is not being screw up by that few...
P.s: Thanks for the nice orange drink and the great tasting scallop... The sweets!!! For cheering me up and making me not lose my temper...

i am back...

Thanks to everyone who accompany me through this crap period of mine. My gi na(esp. Zee who i call everytime), Gerri, didi and Eugene for listening to me. I though it over this few days and manage to hide part of the feelings aside first. The old happy smiley Florence will be back!!! ^_^

the sweet memories...

It is all back to normal now i guess since she is back. Having supper together, chatting together on msn till wee times, getting to see you more often, all these will not happen anymore already. Although i was very emotional unstable the past few days but i am glad that i have all these great memories with you. Thanks :)I will miss the drinks, food i had with you. Hope you be happy with your ger ger back and that will be my greatest wish. Although i cannot be always there to listen to your woes or just chat with you but in your times of need i will always be around when you need me. I MISS YOU!!!

P.s: Time for me to put you aside and concentrate on my studies already...

CUTE!!! Luv

affected...

I need a drink tonight!! Its been long that i need a drink so badly... Guess yesterday meeting affected me, on the bus i just feel like resting my head on your shoulder. I feel like telling you that I LOVE YOU... At least i still get to say it in here and its time for me to pack all this feeling for you into a tight box and hide it in a corner of my heart.

I know that i will be able to put the feelings for you aside (but wonder how long i will take) and just be great friend with you, i just need some more time... I am happy enough if in times of need you will think of me this friend, being able to be around you seeing you happy is already the most i can ask for...

i am affected by him... i am truly affected and i am not happy about it... Because i do not know how long will it continue to affect me and i got a feeling it that it will be for very very long :(

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haix... very sad songs... one of my favourite songs now because it sort of describe what i feel... 事情如果那么简单那就好了

情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见 瞬间就统统消灭
人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血 悲伤也不会流泪

不需要有同类 传染颓废
不需要愚昧的尊严
不需要去偷窃你的思念
自我安慰

就让我伪装 我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留最后一点点特权
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半地已经残废
那一半跟着你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐地瓦解

如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年

如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许我们有一天会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍