stay mine??

Will you stay mine?? The answer was long hidden in my heart... It will never be :) and i will have to keep remembering this ans to stop me from dropping into the hole... LUV

Suay week...

Last week ended with a suay day too and i hope this lead to my end of suayness. Hahha, i this clumsy ger actually fall down straight on my face on the face when i was rushing to work. It hurts and the first person that came to my mind was him. But watever, time to change this mindset. Haix, it still hurts until today :( Time to go study... I am blogging crap for this entry... lol, maybe cox i just woke up...

P.s: <Did you ever fall for someone, that you really didn’t want to, words can’t explain why, but you love being with them every minute. It’s one of the few things that make you happy

and it shouldn’t, and all you wanted to do was try to give up on them, but you couldn’t.

i like...

nice quote...

They asked, "how does it feel to love someone who loves someone else?" After a deep breath, I answered, "It's like hugging a cactus, the tighter you embrace, the more it hurts..." But i cant stop for now though it hurts... as i still love the talks we have although i cant ask for more...

An unlucky day 03.11.09

Yesterday was freaking unlucky day for me!! First i cant rest as someone gotten mc and i help to cover. Unexpectedly, there was quite a good dinner crowd yesterday, i almost died at work. Although i always believe that working on 3 person will work but i came to realize yesterday that it depends on whose the other 2 person. Everything just came together, customer complain, customer fall down, petty cash counted lots of time before getting it correct, forget to print sales summary and the idiotic pos still hang on me. Piss off lor!!! ultimate piss off!!! piss off that i screw up at work, i should not be... :(

Yesterday also came to make me realize one point even more, i am never important in your life and never will be. My expectation are starting to run high already. Becoming dependent on you, wanted so much to talk to you last night but guess you were tired. You know how much i wanted yesterday to rest on your shoulder and tell you all about my unlucky day, how i just needed a hug from you to just make everything right. All these i could just have it in my dreams, isnt it?? time to wake up...

P.s: Leaving someone behind means you only want the best for him, even if it means swallowing the sad reality that, the best just isn't you.

watever...

Some screw up things happen yesterday again... This matter i was at fault, at fault that i tried to disturb him. I thought we were close, i thought you know that i was just playing around but it backfire i guess. That i am sorry and apologize to her and the rest of the bitches for bringing trouble to you gers. I am tired already and i do not have the strength to explain about this matter. No matter how much explanation is done, things will not change, the fault will still be with me only. Everyone will still have to do things according to what she want. I do not like it, backstabbing us and blaming everything to other people. Actually end up there were never the bitches group... It was always just your group where the world turn just because of you. Please let all the tolerance be with me later!! I dun wan things to get worst and make everyone worry.

Piss

I am very piss... i know i should not be as it does not concern me but... haix...

P.s: If hate is such a strong word, then why do we toss around love like it's nothing?(from facebook love quote, just sum up what i feel)