Piss

I am very piss... i know i should not be as it does not concern me but... haix...

P.s: If hate is such a strong word, then why do we toss around love like it's nothing?(from facebook love quote, just sum up what i feel)

nice nice :)

第二顺位... fav song of the mth

一直是我 陪你去躲 回忆里的雨你无心的叹息 有心碎的声音他的好 他的坏 他的不安定他的故事 是我和你 爱情里的乌云从我爱上 爱他的你 那个瞬间起一直是雨天 你只爱雨天 我用伞保护你亲吻着 你苦涩 味道的微笑闭着眼睛 我明白你 想念他的秘密我一直在 第二顺位 爱着你一直从雨天 一直到阴天一直到晴天 你逃离过去我一直在 第二顺位 等着你一直从昨天 一直到今天一直到永远 我相信 是我最爱你聆听你说 抱歉多过 你说我爱你你困在雨里 我困在雨里 我的伞湿淋淋『没关系』是我最常说的一句就让我等 就算我冷 至少我陪着你我一直在 第二顺位 爱着你一直从雨天 一直到阴天一直到晴天 你逃离过去我一直在 第二顺位 等着你一直从昨天 一直到今天一直到永远 我相信是我最爱你我一直在 第二顺位 爱着你一直从雨天 一直到阴天一直到晴天 你逃离过去我一直在 第二顺位 等着你一直从昨天 一直到今天一直到永远 我相信是我最爱你...

comma...

I am enjoying the feeling we have now... but can i ask for more?? hahahha... i cant and so for now i am glad to be able to stay around you... When will i be able to put a period on this... LUV

P.s: In a sentence of love, oftentimes you have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma. In time... you will realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense.

i am fine...

I will be fine de... there nothing else i can do beside pulling myself out of this... will do it de esp got the concern from my bitches and si gi na. maybe i just need some more time i guess :) LUV

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Got the answer i wanted...

still friends...

I really do not know what you are thinking, after knowing you are still that normal. Finding me to talk on msn often, being concern about me when you see my sad nick. But i know you are avoiding all the question that will lead to that topic. Although i need the ans more than ever now but i am still glad we are still friends :) You will always be the woodhead i will miss, hee :P

P.s: 人生就像一场赌局，不可能把把都赢，只要筹码在自己手上，就永远都有希望

time needed...

I just need some time. I know i should not be so affected by him but sometimes saying is easier then actually doing it. Just bear with me somemore ok people!!! LUV U ALL!!! :)

I love you...

I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the-the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is-is-is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t-I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that-that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, ‘cause I’ve never felt this way before, and I-I don’t care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn’t allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I’ll accept that. But I know, I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there’s a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. And all I ask, please, is that you just - you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. There isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can’t deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I’d never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.

P.s: Haix... u are just avoiding it!! why can you just act like so normal.

The truth is told...

Thanks all my friends!!! At the time where i am most sad, you all lend me a hand to pull me. I will be fine de, just give me some times to recover!! :) but i still miss him :(

For you woodhead....

I finally got the answer i wanted... I know that you are the same woodhead i know and still do not know i like you. I have decided to let you go in my heart, i just need to know that you are happy. Whether anot to let you know that i like you, that i am still deciding. Maybe when i hide this truth until i cannot breathe anymore than i will chose to let you know. At least i still have all the memories with me :)

It's when I’m standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you… that I just want to scream to the whole room that I’m still in love with you. It’s when I’m sitting alone with the phone in my hand, dialing your number and just hanging up… that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. It’s when I’m really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you’re the only one who knew me at all. It’s when I cry myself to sleep at night, and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It’s when I think about you that I realize no one else in this world is meant for me.

black shirt...

First day wearing black and i was asked to helped out in Suntec. I am so not use to wearing black, especially the long pants. I can imagine wearing them in far east, how hot can it be...

my precious friends...

First of all... I wan say sorry to my gi na as i almost did not listen to all of your advise today. I know that you all have only my best interest at heart but i just let my heart take over my brain. A big THANKS to Eugene for accompanying me to supper just now. Although we did not talk much about him but it is the concern that helped me. Our kind of friendship just really amaze me sometimes.

I am giving myself just one more week and i have to stop all this crap of drinking and having supper excessively for the last close to one month. I am getting fatter and i hate it... Time to really try to let go and cheer up. I am not sure whether i can do it but i must really give it my best effort.

P.s: Time to say bye to yellow at work and to say hi to black. Hope i will not screw up anything with my new job scope. :)